Another Love Tragedy?

It has been years since I have moved on an accepted my fate with Ms. Fireworks. She is happy, they are happy, I am OK with that. I actually have good conversations with her bf as he is also a geek as well. I think I would again find another one soon, as I move on with my life with a lot of new firsts. Last year I went on my first trip to Davao which is also my first plane ride. I met a ton of new friends and even got in touch with old ones as well.

Love has not been a priority but I find myself including them in my prayers. I know that I would like to love not because I am lonely, but ready. But I do know that now I am ready, but the universe still does not pave me an opportunity for it. I have tried to look around but it seems they are either too far from my interests and/or would not be interested in me as well.

Will You Celebrate Single Awareness Day This Year?

table for one?

It's another year and I will be celebrating the annual single awareness day 2015 together with all of the single men and women on the world. But what would or should I do on this "holiday"? There are a lot of things, but definitely something to get over the fact that a soul longs to be with someone even for a moment. 

I am happy for people who are in love, and they should be, they deserve it. But we have to take into consideration the people who are also trapped in love who are actually suffering more than they are feeling love. They need help and compassion more than shallow concerns. 

And for those who are very happy in love, make sure you will still find ways to love your partner, love them beyond the flaws they have. If they are deep flaws, reflect and know what you need to do as love may not be the solution to all life can give us.  And how about us single people? Many would be emotional and think it would be a curse, karma, or a condition that needs to be remedied by quick love.

Being single is not something to be ashamed of. 

Will I continue to love?

Heartbreak is killing me.

As I see you have a new love is breaking me and it is getting worse. The fact that you are together is already a spear through my heart and seeng you two together is not healthy for me. I am happy you are in glee and in love. But that left me so down and depressed. 

Again, I know that it is all my fault being so slow and shy for what I feel. The love inspired me to do things I have never done before. Like to be back writing and improving myself is what I am doing one step at a time. To be worthy of your pressence and attention. To write poems and adventures with you. But I am still in heartbreak, and I don't have to pretend. 

The Bitter Truth

I just recently discovered something about Ms. Fireworks, she is seeing someone today (insert sad song here).

This was my worst fear, I guess I am not good enough. Is the cosmos trying to play with my emotions again? I rarely love someone, but I wanted to open up when I am ready. I am too slow, too cryptic, too passive and too  secretive. Knowing that she is happy with another does break my heart. A feeling I never had in a while. I am devastated. 

It All Starts With LOVE

I have been blogging for more than a decade with articles about life, struggles, wishes, hopes and disappointments that have define the current me. But I have not actually made a post of what I feel inside, the real loving Florencio which I was named. Manual To Lyf was a blog all about the generalities of life and what one should never miss out. However, I come to realize that I was never in a relationship with someone at all in my 27 years of existence. 

Yes, I can be branded as single since birth, but I do acknowledge that I fell in love many times but seems to have a hindrance in many forms and situations. I felt that the reason why I am not in a relationship because I was destined to. It felt like a punishment for me for not achieving my goals which I have worked for but also got into a lot of mess. I just looked beyond from afar on the girls which would have been the one that gives me more reasons to smile and love.